why does it hurt so much?

SAD):

2010-01-13T19:01:00.000-08:00

oh well, guess i won't be competing this year. AGAIN.
you know this is so damn annoying.
i don't even know whyi'm still training anyway.
its so. irritating. i don't skip training.
so maybe. it doesn't really make a difference how much effort you even put in.
gosh i cant stand it anymore.

2010-01-12T17:37:00.001-08:00

HI WORLD.
anyway. im in the computer lab now!! ok blog later at night hi shannon! and ISAAC TAN! and tess(:

NEW FAV WORD

2009-11-29T07:05:00.001-08:00

ok, lately, i've been feeling HORRIBLE.
gosh.
i had a nosebleed for hours, without stopping.
how bad can it get??
AND i was sick on my birthday.
haha

LACERATE.
i love that word. it sounds nice.
and i've been tring really hard.

2009-11-06T02:09:00.000-08:00

hello. last day of school.
i kinda have mixed feelings, and i had a heart to heart talk with my friends.
I mean track friends.
i realised that i hide my feelings very well.
I don't show that i'm sad.
thats good right?
what do you think?

2009-10-28T03:44:00.000-07:00

haha i'm currently at bin hui's house, with siao shuen.
and her dog is barking!!
hehe, this is so fun.
and yea, my results totally suck.
but i'm going to work harder next year!!
haha(:
oh guess what?
SOMEONE broke down today,
so unpredictable.
hahahahahahha. totally ok.
i thought she stopped already.
and random people think i hate them.
now isn't that weird.
i don't hate people.
HATE is such a strong word.

and what do you do if the person you dislike asks if you dislike them??
what do you say to them?

and please, tag my blog(:

OH MAN)):

2009-10-27T07:29:00.001-07:00

sighh...
today totally sucked.
we got back history LA and science.
well, i passed history(:

well, i totally messed up sec 1,
BUT I PROMISE. I PROMISE TO WORK HARDER AND GET REALLY GOOD RESULTS NEXT YEAR. YOU JUST WAIT AND SEE.
well, ok.
i decided not to let other people affect me.
because, those who do so always end up crying-.-
so, yea.
and did i mention, I LOVE WATCHING FRED ON YOUTUBE!!! <3
haha and please tag my blog!! thank you

2009-10-26T09:10:00.000-07:00

hello world(:
i haven't posted in a really long time.
exams were over last wednesday and i had training!!.
bleagh, come on, let us relax dude.
ANYWAY.
people change, but sometimes, we have to give in to them(:
and its really cool.
haha. change may be good too!
come on, cheer up, world.

ok, so.
many things have been happening lately, an its like DEJA VU.
around 2 months ago, i had this issue with a classmate D:
tears... NOT FROM ME.
so, now track is just so complicated.
everyone hates someone,
but i don't. cos hate is a strong word.
i just really really x56789 dislike a person.

so yea, ignore the time on my computer, its totally wrong,
and its 12.15am now, and there's school tomorrorow.
and to most people, its LATE.
but. its not(:
haha but i shall log off now, and wear my huge sunglasses just for the fun of it.

ps. i cut my hair.
but i think its better, cos it's not so...long(:

BYE!

2009-10-10T06:54:00.000-07:00

staring out at the wind with a heavy heart,
It's the end of the world in my mind.
Then your voice pulls me back like a wake up call,
I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere I couldn't see that it was right there,
But now I know what i didn't know.
beacuse you live and breathe,
because you make me believe,in myself when nobody else can help
because you live, my world has twice as many stars in the sky.
its alright, i survived,i'm alive again.
cos of you, made it through every storm.

lyrics for a jesse mcartney song, because you live.
and i really mean all this from my heart.

-hui xuan.

2009-09-14T06:21:00.001-07:00

OMG PROBABLY THE MOST EXCITING DAY OF MY LIFE IN NANYANG. so far.(:

i like stuffing random things into my mouth. (:

2009-09-07T08:13:00.000-07:00

hey guys. sorry.
i have'nt posted for quite some time.
no turning back, no turning back....
and i will follow.
no turning back, no turning back...
and i will carry the cross.
i love that song!!

you know what?
i thought everything would be over and done with after the problem with _________was settles.
and now, she isn't talking to me.

but, I THINK I CAN'T BEAR TO HATE HER. -.-
weird right?
but yea, MOVE ALONG MOVE ALONG

hello(:

2009-08-21T07:42:00.000-07:00

hello(: haha
i feel kinda weird now.
mixed feelings you know.

dont waste your whole life trying to get back what was taken away...
i like that song.(:
this world is full of backstabbers
they are all suckers.

sorry,________
i dont know what to say when i see you.
so maybe i don't really talk to you.
but you don't talk to me too):
so, it doesn't really make a difference. does it?

life sucks, but take it positively(:

2009-08-07T04:59:00.000-07:00

hi,
i changed my blogskin and hope you like it!
live life!
sorry, i'll post soonXD
pls tag!
this is retarded

2009-08-01T06:11:00.000-07:00

dear__________,
I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you I don't hate you

I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you I don't want to avoid you

I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you

(as a sworn?/ friend/classmate of course) haha, I'm sorry for being so cold ><

and if you're reading his, i believe you know who you are. so, please tag and I'll start acting normal again.(:
and others, don't bother tagging using this person's name because I can track down who the person tagging is.
thanks.

2009-07-30T07:20:00.000-07:00

ok. seriously, this is just WEIRD.
haha, but i'm not the type that gets affected much.
so, oh well...
haha. i need to sort things out(:
tuition was so freaking fun.
and hui jie said i should become a comedian and earn lots of money.
:DDDDDDD
MONEY $$$
but yea, well, i gave her a mushroom.
what can i say? being the nice and generous person i am...
NO I AM JUST KIDDING. I'M NOT SO EGO. -.- ITS AN INSDIE JOKE (:
lalala. haha i'm lucky because i just forget about my problems when i sleep.
sleep like a pig (:
zzzzzz

why???

2009-07-29T06:03:00.000-07:00

ok. i do not understabd why this is happening to me.
about this issue, I GIVE UP (:
lols. maybe i shall transfer school(:
haha i know which school will accept me already.
just further down the road...
lols. well, its not a bad thing too as i will also get scholarshipXD.
haha my msn DP is dumb.
i was imitating someone in p3 i think XD
im MEAN. to some people.
ok i need to do my LA.
haha TAG PPL TAG.
anyways, I KNOW WHO READS my blog.
I SHALL CHANGE THE URL

haha

2009-07-24T05:59:00.000-07:00

ok, seriously my blog is NOT emo.
well, i'm sick and tired of all the drama and i want it to stop.
for good.
the last time you thought i hated you.
and then i explained to you and you promised to trust that i don't hate you.
but yet, you doubt my words again.
what can i do?
i want you to trust me.
you're being influenced.
how can a friendship last if there is no trust?
gosh, i do not hate you, i never will.
but if you do not believe it, what can i do?
gosh. i always loved you as a friend.
i still do.
but this revolves around trust.
and the last part is QUOTED FROM A RETARDED FRIEND.
'sigh...crying'

2009-07-18T22:48:00.000-07:00

hello! i'm here to post.
obviously-.-
haha MY SENIOR (ahem ahem)
was stalking my blog.
and she tagged. lols. so it isnt stalking anymore.
ok. i nearly typed in BOGGER.COM
-.-
and i LOVE daughtry!
he rocks
haha not to sound emo or whatever, but life has been tough...
like, i have to worry about friends, track, studies and others.
i don't know...
but, i shall be cheerful and do my work!
but ppl MUST tag.
PLEASE(:

what about now, what about today,
what is you're making me, all that i was meant to be.
what is our love, never went away,
what if its lost behind, words we could never find.....

everlasting, your light will shine when all else fade,
neverending, your glory goes beyond all fame.
and the cry of my heart is to give you praise from the inside out Lord my soul cries out....

2009-07-11T06:39:00.000-07:00

hey guys.
I HAD THE MOST TIRING WORK OUT OF MY LIFE.
WE WENT JOGGING IN THE FOREST AND IT STARTED TO RAIN HEAVILY AND WE CONTINUED TO RUN AND WE DIED.

PEOPLE WHO READ MY BLOG BUT DON'T TAG ARE STALKERS!
tag please (:

FUN (:

2009-07-06T01:13:00.000-07:00

goodness.
i'm soaked to the bone.
so freaking wet.
perpiration + rainwater
haha i went down to play tennis with my father and it was so dmn fun kay.
and then it started raining heavily.
but we still played until the whole court was wet....
man im still wet.
i shall go take a shower and then have some honey.

i dont hate you

2009-06-30T23:52:00.001-07:00

hey, i just came home from school and i decided that i HAVE to post this.
to you out there, i know you're reading this.
i really don't hate you.
and i will NEVER EVER hate you.
anyway i hold nothing against you in the first place.

and i have no idea why you think i hate you.
pls cheer up and know that i dont hate you, jie.
ok i've said my piece.
it's now up to you.
do you trust me?
you can choose whose words you want to believe.
mine, or hers?
so, bye.
hui xuan (:

2009-06-30T05:11:00.000-07:00

haha. i'm posting again.
well, i'm back to school and i'm so not happy.
so not happy.
ok. BUT i am happy because i bought a new laptop.
its vaio and its pearl white and i'm happy.
ok.
so, this will be my rants for the past TWO days.
to ______ : I HATE YOU!
ok, i feel happier.
she's like.... a stupid idiot ( all the bad words)
i dont know whats wrong with her man...
retarded.
oh yea, we have a new seating arrangement
so, im sitting with sonia and mignon.
(:
and i love my telepathy buddies! isabel mandy and weenie.
and because of H1N1, there's no training.
not 100% a good thing though, because i gotta go home and i will have even more thime to think about that idiot.
and i don't know what to do with her.
its HER thats hurting MANY, MANY people.
but there's no way she's going to be able to hurt me because i can't be bothered by her.
its a waste of my time and effort being angry at her.
sigh...why am i stuck in the same class as her for TWO whole years??!!
MAN THIS IS HORRIBLE.
bye!(:

2009-06-26T08:20:00.001-07:00

HELLOOOOOOOOOOO
hui xuan is in a good mood today
because she isn't in a bad mood (:
-.- ok sorry.
today was the first ever.......SMMHHCVR outing!
all 8 of us went kay!!
super duper fun.
so i took a bus to plaza singapura to meet them
and reached there aroung 1130.
so i went to comics connection and suddenly had the urge to call isabel.
and GUESS WHAT?
SHE WAS AT PLAZA SINGAPURA TOO!
man, we really are telepathy buddies!
ok. back to the point.
so the only blemish in the outing was.
THE BLOODY STINKING MOVIE.
IT SO TOTALLY SUCKED BIG TIME.
I SPENT 3 QUARTERS OF THE TIM E SQUISHING MY FACE INTO MY BAG COS I WAS SCARED.
seriously.
BUT, after the movie, we went to eat as a TEAM,
and went to the arcade.
i started off playing BASKETBALL. so fun!
and then we played table soccer, which i totally sucked at.
and then i forgot what else happened.

but this is no doubt.
THE FUNNEST EVER OUTING (the first) WITH SMMHHCVR!!!!!
now, i love track.
sighh, i wonder why i didn't in the first place.
tsk tsk, i love track, and my teammates.<3

2009-06-24T04:04:00.000-07:00

hello earthlings (:
i come in peace.
NOT!
ok, i feel really HIGH-ish right now i have no idea why.
so yesterday,
yuet ching and i were having this little 'arguement' on whether or not i am funny -.-
as i had a violent objection to her saying im funny, we decided to have a survey.
and so far,
6 of the 6 ppl asked said i was.
-.-
retarded.
eeeks.
ttyl. bb!

2009-06-23T07:09:00.000-07:00

sorry i didnt have time to blog lately.
this post will be kinda SHORT.
BUT, i will post more now (:
you knoe, sometimes i talk to someone i love.
(friends love each other)
but then, the feeling gets all wrong, and i just end the conversation.
you know it hurts me inside to do so.
i don't understand the situation.
i love her as a friend, i sister.
what went wrong?

2009-06-13T21:24:00.000-07:00

oh crap.
i realised something today.
THE BLADE IS DAMN FREAKING SHARP.
awww man.
my life is hanging by a THREAD.
dont cut it, please (:
i LOVE my sworns.

tag replies.
wan xin: THANK YOU MANZ.
valerie: ... me? NICE AND FUNNY??!! yea right.

2009-06-11T20:55:00.000-07:00

aww man.
so many fun things happened lately.
trip to vivo, track, track, track.
hmmms. most revolve around track.
i need your opinion on something.
what should i do if i'm in doubt about a classmate.
i think she's just faking it all, the caring for me, and everything.
and. sworns are close to my heart.
she's a sworn.
this is horrible.
vegetable.
on the table.
-.- this is lame. but i really dont know if i should break the sworn.
and, kylee i am not talking about you.
please tag your opinion on this.
thks.

2009-06-02T05:31:00.000-07:00

life is a test.
i flunked it. again.

if you understand what that means.
i'm sorry. i had to.
i promised not to.
i didn't do it on purpose.
it was an accident.
and it isn't serious.
why would you even care or bother about it anyway?
it doesn't mean anything to you.
by the time we meet again,(math supp)
i doubt it'll still be visible.
thats good. i hope.
sorry.

2009-06-01T00:03:00.000-07:00

today's training was fun fun fun(:
i love track now.
so, it started off with me, cherise and sheryl getting the tent out of the shed.
and on it were very funny words.
i only remember shade me and instant shade!!!!!!!!!!<3
and we were laughing like brocoli.....
haha.
so we did the stupid hurdles :O
horrible.
and then we did exercices and talked
and the vending machine cheated my feelings!
it didnt give us the change.
so we went to the GO to ask for 50 cents change.
after talking on the phone for like 5 minutes,
the lady told us that we could get back our coins when school reopens!!!
for 50 cents -.-
k, so we were laughing like asparagus.
and i shall post more another time.
nubnub

2009-05-31T00:44:00.000-07:00

every step you climb another mountain....
every breath its harder to believe.......

i'm on a roller coaster ride.
ups and downs.
why me?
this sucks.
i wondered.....
" there are so many religions in the world....how do i know that my God is real? and i realised. it takes faith to believe. God is real. and my life is a test. and i nearly failed."
i was thinking.
this person doesn't know that i feel uncomfortable around her due to drifting apart....
and i love her as a friend and maybe as a sworn.
well, yea, as a sworn.
and she means a lot to me.
but why must she let me down like that?
if you dont like someone, why care what they say about you?

would you care if i was that person? dao-ing you?
i guess not.

2009-05-29T06:28:00.000-07:00

penknife
penknife
penknife.
oh how i miss you so.....
why did i even promise not to use you?....

why is my life like that?
NEVER EVER GET TOO CLOSE TO SOMEONE.
its risky.

2009-05-23T07:46:00.000-07:00

today was open house cum track trials.
so fun fun fun!
saw shu yan and valerie!!!
and cherise and vivian and sheryl and rebecca and maya and magdalene :)
in no particular order

and i want to talk about my sworns in class today.
and i realised some interesting stuff that shu yan and i deduced

ok so,
let me list out my sworns.
in register no.
eleanor
isabel
valerie
melissa
mandy
sonia
shu yan

just check out those awesome people up there!!
<3
eleanor is just fun to TEASE and she SMILES a lot but her grasp sends me writhing on the floor.
isabel is just nice in her own way..hehe...TELEPATHY
valerie is nice. funny too
melissa is... kind and understanding and nice and nice and nice and nice and nice.
mandy is TALL. and funny
sonia is just trustable. nice to talk to too!!
shu yan is CUTE AND REALLY FUNNY AND REALLY BLUR. reminds me of FERB:D

i have nothing else to say partially cos i forgot what i intended to say
bb!

CSM

2009-05-20T02:12:00.000-07:00

today was the CSM
and i am tired.
so i went over to the hwa chong track at around 7.05
and waited for the events to start.
i was nearly melting under the hot sun.
and sms ing certain people!!!!
so fun.
until it was time for the relay.
so i changed into my spikes and reported with the rest of the 110 team!!!<3 them
ME MELISSA YUET CHING NATALYA TRICIA AMY SHU YAN VALERIE.
:D
so yea, we went to our respective places and warmed up. kinda.
so i walked to the start line feeling kinda teeny weenie bit nervous.
so, it was soon the start of the race.
" BANG" and i started running.
i could practically feel the adrenaline rush
and the wind...i felt in control of it all.
until we reached the 50m mark
and i passed the baton to melissa.
ok....
i serioualy have no idea what happened but i fell.
on my right knee
gah.
but luckily, i passed the baton and melissa didnt fall :D
i love my jie.
and then......somehow i couldnt find the strength to stand up....
until a while later.
and i felt my knee burning.
and i realised that there was some blood.
so i wiped it off. quickly. disgustingly.
haha.
so i made my way to the finish line to congratulate VALERIE.
and from out of nowhere, li yi popped out and asked if i neededhelp.
and she sprayed water on my leg.
i nearly screamed, but THANK YOU!!! really, it helped :D
until i got dragged away by some person to the stand.
and then my knee started to hurt, a lot.
but, some people came over to help me, and i went to the st john's ambulance brigade.
and they took so long to but some cream stuff and the dressing.
and blahblah blah.

and then i went to KAP with some ppl!!!
and i'll talk bout it tomorrow. yawn!!!
see ya soon.
gosh. my knee is gonna hurt tomorrow.
and i have training

2009-05-19T04:41:00.000-07:00

what in the world is wrong with you?
you just go around hurting other people's feelings.
i've been putting up with you for long enough already.
and i gave you chances.
and i observed your behaviour
you are just going around breaking the best of friends up.
I will never let you hurt me again. never.
i've been hurt enough.
i don't wanna go through the same thing again.

i'm doing this for my own good.
and for the sake of not getting hurt again.

2009-05-17T00:59:00.000-07:00

when the going gets tough,
the tough eat chocolate.

its only funny until someone gets hurt....
..........then its HILARIOUS

haha. i like those.
you know what i realised?
i'm not a really forgiving person.
well, i DO give chances, i give 2.
and once you repeat your mistake for the third time,
1) you have to wait a LONG LONG LONG time to be forgiven, or
2) you'll never be forgiven.

so when i love someone, they better cherish it, because its hard to be loved by me.
and i dont love just anyone.
so, cherish your chances.
and i don't think i will forgive ______.
well, at least not anytime soon.
blame it on yourself...
you deserve it.

and and i didnt do really well, for block test :(
msg= 1.8 (same as isabel jie!!!)
we have telepathy.
trust me.

she look......like a duck. ( i had a major typo when i sms-ed that.

2009-05-14T21:20:00.000-07:00

i'm in school posting now.
and i'm pissed.
tricia says hi
PPL WHO I'M NOT PISSED AT THINK I'M PISSED AT THEM
PPL WHO I'M PISSED AT THINK I'M NOT PISSED AT HER.
retarded:D
weird i tell you.
i feel sad.
i really regret my choice in accepting the offer by nanyang..
i should have just stayed in MGS and learn about philosophy in the SBC class....-.-

2009-05-14T07:12:00.000-07:00

gah. today was 2.4 -.-
notfun cos the ground was wet and no one to pace with.
and then after many many lessons, it was training.
FUN i tell you.
we tried pole vault and javelin.
fun.
all the sprinters nd jumpers are like damn pro can??
and after training, there was this team bonding and tom yam noodles <3
delicious.
so, we had really major gossiping. <3 love it.
cherise was so despo for new gossip lorhh.
well, somehow, i feel tired.
i dont know if its emotional or physical...
perhaps its a mixture of both.
yea.
but i promised many people that i would not cut.
and i dont wanna anymore. its wrong.

2009-05-12T18:59:00.000-07:00

once again i am at the computer lab.
you know what?
I HATE HER
I HATE HER
I HATE HER
I HATE HER
I HATE HER
I HATE HER
I HATE HER
I HATE HER
I HATE HER
most people should know who i'm talking about...

2009-05-11T21:31:00.000-07:00

i am in the computer lab now with some random people.
this weird person in class doesn't knowb that she's pissing me off so badly.
hahas.
isabel and me ran in the rain for like...5 times for no reaon at all.
heavy rain i tell you.
there are supposed to be jumps later but given the heavy rain, i believe that it will be postponed.
:D
im scared.
there are so many other pro juers lorhh.
wish me luck!!!

you're still pissing me off.
get lost........loser.

2009-05-10T07:03:00.000-07:00

once again i'm blogging from my dad's laptop.
and i'm bored
and i realised that it is mothers day
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MUMMY!!
i realised all this while, you scolded me because i deserved it.
thanks.
and i'm scard for tuesday.

1) long jump finals
2)math blocks may be out
3) chinese blocks should be out
4) i may not be able to control myself and punch that person
5) ICAS paper.

aww man.
im stressed.
let it go.......
i just cant.
why is it this way?
track is giving me unlimited problems.
some people here are just so cold....
why cant they be nicer?

my life is made miserable by you.
get lost...sore loser.

2009-05-08T23:28:00.000-07:00

sheesh. i spilt a whole tub of yogurt on my laptop.
so i'm posting frommy dad's laptop.
80m finals.......4th....
longjump.......finals on tuesday!
EGAD!
oh no.
and myspiritshave been pulled down,
my confidence has been destroyed.
thanks to some person.
i shall not refer to you as my friend....no.
whats with the " i promisenever ever to hurt you again."
" i will change."
that is all a bunch of lies. some sorry CRAP.
you insult people without thinking before you speak.
you get jealous when your friend is closer to someone else.
and you try to break their friendships
like that will do you any good.
you made me punch the wall
and expletives were spewing from me.
don't expect me to forgive you this time.
get back to reality.
its not going to happen.
at leat i dont think it will.
go away if you hav nothing good to say.
do you think its so easy to win a competition?
i wont say anything if you can win a simple race, sprint.
show me. prove it. or just get lost.
count yourself lucky this post is not filled with f-words
you should know who you are.
and i nearly puched you during dance.
if you didn't know

go away, loser.
show me you can win. prove it.

my knee hurts because it has a protruding bone.
my head hurts cos haven't slept for a long time.
my fingers hurt cos i'mtyping like mad.
my knuckleshurt cos i punched the wall instead of you.
my heart hurts cos its filled with hatred
stress......can kill

2009-05-03T00:06:00.001-07:00

wow. i have loads to post about.
there was this BBQ thing that magdalene invited the sprintenters and jumpers for.
so, i left the house at around 3.40 and reached like.....half an hour later.
they were playing captain's ball when i reached so i joined in.
well, at first, i was busy sms-ing someone.
and we outnumbered the other team... but we lost horribly
it was kinda like NY trackers in one team.
so yea.........
and after a while, we played DODGEBALL!!!
and i was so extremely (x1083797632564826) scared of jannah :D
cos she's tall and fast. very fast.
so... i was the loneranger...-.- sounds like DESIREE!!!
and ms tan arrived!!! EEEEK
' good afternoon ms tan ' all the trackers said......
and continued playing.
and and and when we stopped for a water break, i had to test out the drink and rate it -.-'''
yea, so we were thinking, JELLYFISH + GUINEA PIG = JELLYPIG!!!
hehe. that was dumb.
so we played and played.
until dinner.....
we all sat at a table to eat.
and listened to SOMEONE'S jokes......
lols
and all of a sudden i saw something funny and started laughing...
it was because there was a group of old people beside us talking and laughing away...
heehehehehee
it was funny i tell you.
and well, as the next day was MAYA'S b'dae, they brought out a cake:D
and she cut it. horribly
one mistake and the cake would have fallen SPLAT on the floor.
after eating the cake, we played LAO YING ZHUO XIAO JI
so fun!!!
as we were running around like retards, i crashed into the tree -.-'''
and then magdalene started laughing crazily.
one of the first times a see her laugh so hard....:D
and and CHERISE was trying to learn how to suaveboard...-.-'''
and as usual, she had a lot of crashes.....and unsuccessful attempts.
and surprisingly, she did not die and mastered the basic art of suaveboarding
ok....im hungry....
i'll post more tomorrow

2009-05-02T06:21:00.000-07:00

i came back from church today and i started to reflect on my behaviour.
i feel that i have let people down, especially God and myself.

as i see the blood trickle down, i feel remorseful
i shouldn't have done that
i really shouldn't
but what else can i do?
the blood flows out, and in it, lies my past mistakes and sadness.
but does it really work?

i am really sorry God.
You gave me this life, and i will live it well

and i let myself down.
i could have shown some determination in living my life to the fullest.
people around me told me not to, but i still succumbed to the temptation.
i threw the penknife away.
and i don't want to go back to my old ways.

heats.

2009-04-30T21:53:00.000-07:00

today's post isn't going to be emo.
thats a good thing.
its going to be about yesterday's heats.

so, it was at 3.30 for long jump
and 4.00 for sprints.
so yea, i changed into my spikes.
and then took my markings:)
mr pedro was in a good mood and let us refer to "THE BOOK"
10.8 and 20.3
i must remember that.
so yea, had 2 trial jumps
yea, so got into finals and had 4 more jumps.
so, vivian, cherise, magdalene and i jumped,
the only ones wearing spikes.
haiz.....vivian was talking crap.
according to her, it was due to the presence of sunlight.
-.- diao...
so the jumps went pretty well, surprisingly.
i havent jumped for ages.

so i went to the sprints and put on my number tag.
it was PINK with a number 6 on it.
what a NICE colour for a number tag.....not
so yea, it was the first heat.
and i had a super slow reaction manz....
but still, i came in FIRST.....
yay.
i am SO happy-.-
and i hope i get into finals....
earn points for my class.

i miss my primary school friends.....

2009-04-29T05:26:00.000-07:00

life has been tough.
so much so that i had to resort to doing something.
firstly, i'm always a nervous wreck before exams.

secondly, someone is trying to stir trouble with me and somebody else.
this has caused many misunderstandings.
and i'm very disappointed in you.

and i'm very sorry for what i did.
i promised many people that i would stop already.
because it hurts physically and emotionally.

i'm lucky i finished the chinese paper today!!
with 15 minutes to spare.
thats a good thing
i think.
i've changed after steppinginto secondary school.
i've become emo.
and i was NEVER like that before.
i used to be the very happy kind.not anymore
but what happened?
i'm really disappointed in myself.
stress. can kill.
track.friends.examns.teachers. all piling up on me.

2009-04-25T05:17:00.000-07:00

no turning back
no turning back
and i will follow

no turning back
no turning back
no turning back
and i will carry the cross...

i will go...
wherever you lead i will follow

so many things have occured in my life lately.
and i just want to say.

maybe i don't hate you
maybe i have never hated you
maybe i'm not ignoring you
maybe i miss you
maybe i just miss your voice
maybe i want us to be friends again
maybe we're drawing further and further apart
maybe i just need someone, anyone to talk to me
maybe i'm tired of all this
maybe i will just end it all, once and for all
it hurts me inside
i need someone, just anyone
you're killing me inside

congrats to all trackers who did well in the nationals.
especially those who won the race against themselves.

it hurts to watch others on the track, running their hearts out.
they got the opportunity
well, i'm happy for you.
really.
may you set another personal best.

it hurts...

2009-04-20T03:06:00.000-07:00

i'm in the emo mood again.
why do you have to keep pissing me off?
if you're sorry, you should at least try to change.
i've seen an improvement, but do you think that its enough?
get real.
and, thanks a lot for making me feel horrible, like ....
but, this let me see through my friends.
now, i'm doubting some of your friendships.
you're drawing further and furtheraway from me.
and it hurts.

my class<3

2009-04-18T01:24:00.000-07:00

I feel very bored but i shall post as requested by shu yan<3

i shall post about my class..110<3
i love them all. well, some(haha)

i shall post about some of them

eleanor(meii): EVIL person. super flexible one.GYM.lols
lijia: retarded. she likes the skippy ball o.o violin person
isabel(jie): slacker. one of my sms buddies in class .very nice
valerie(jie): fellow tracker. lightning speed i tellu. she promised me not to be sad!!!!<3
melissa(jie): haha. SWORN SISTER. a very nice one:D <3 <3 <3 nice to talk to:D VERY nice
HUI XUAN(ME): the nicest of them all.:D KIDDING. <3
mandy(jie): overgrown giant. tall, tall and tall
sonia(jie): nice to talk to:D hahas
shu yan(jie): very nice to talk to about all kinds of stuff. super guaii too. angelic, blur and adorable. (SPEAKS LIKE A MACHINE GUN WHEN SHE PANICS)

well, i love my class<3 especially the ones listed up there:D they make my day.

thanks for being there.
ture friends are always there.

ps. i took along time to ponder and contemplate before i made the list of people above.
so, i am sorry if i didn't include you in the list.
but, you're still my friend though. i hope.
for some names, i wrote them down, but i cancelled them in the end.

2009-04-15T19:44:00.000-07:00

aww
F*** IT

2009-04-13T21:42:00.000-07:00

i am in class now.emo-ing. i guess.
its my lunch break now, so. yea.
oh yea! we got back the stupid science(physics) block test resukts today.
one word to describe it: horrible
isabel looks like a carrot and a crayon now.
oh. my science block test results were just terrible
31/40
i know. horibble right?

should i break the stupid sworn?
haha.
so anti-climax.
sighh...

2009-04-13T05:01:00.000-07:00

I have been hurt. again.
like i haven't been through enough?!
and you think that you understand.
you've hurt me time and again with your words.
but i will put my trust and my life in the hands of GOD.
and i shall not be affected.
i didn't really care whether or not you dao me.
i'll just dao you back.
simple.
thanks a lot.
how in the world did ii ruin your friendships?
i begged her to forgive you.
but she said she needed time.
and you think i screwed it up.
now you think i don't treat you as a sworn, a sister.
after what you did, do you expect me to treat you as well as i used to?!
dream on.
and you say that i treat my other 'sisters' better than you.
as much as i try, i don't know if i can ever forgive you.
i'll try
but there are some others that are ALWAYS there for me.
thanks.really
love, hui xuan<3

2009-04-09T07:29:00.000-07:00

Hi guys. i love all of you people. muacks.
thanks for the love that you have shown me all this while.
Being there when i truly needed somebody.
i love you all.
thanks for all the support.
especially those few people.
YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.

i've been feeling great stress lately.
friendship.
not that i am hated.
its just that, some have been treating me in a certain UNPLEASANT way.
i love you all though.
and i have training at 7.30 am tomorrow.
how nice-.-
i like my new skin thoughXD
through these 4 months, i have finally found out who my true friends are.
who i can really place my trust in.
you know who you are.
thanks

i love my friends

2009-03-07T06:53:00.000-08:00

heyy!!!!!!!!
u noe wad?
i realised that i fell in love with my classw.............
uh-oh
i do not noe if that is good or not
there are bsome troubled souls out there
like the one whom i was talking to justt now
and yea.......
melissa(jie)
its ok!!!!!!!!
it'll all go away
and besides....i thik that it was all on impulse
yea
u still have other frenz....like ME!!!!
and other ppl....
so, chill
i strangely fell in LOVE with the song WHAT HURTS THE MOST
haha
ask bellybutt
lol
lsc rocked
totally
im lazy to post bout it
i'll do it next time
BUT....
there r some things that i have to say

there are some ppl that i pity
i feel so sorry
hi mandy!
i made some really new frens .......
after the lsc i
really noe how they r like
.....and i like it
and i found out that melissa is a different person in the night
isabel whacked my face when i was sleeping.....
sheesh
haha
gtg
bb

2009-02-26T20:41:00.000-08:00

hello once again ppl of the world.
mwahahahahahaahaqhahaha
as im typing this, SOMEBODY is staring at the screen.
guess who????????
eleanor........
teehee
school's been tough.
with ppl
abdb sia......
sheesh i care lots about it lorhh
okok
i promised to post about some ppl
mandy and kylee
hahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahahahaaha
ok..so
mandy is known for her goldfish and bimbo pose
everywhere she goes
teehee
not really
kylee........hmmmmmmm
\my dear meiix lorhh...
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
i totally LOVE the teachers here
(hear the sarcasm)
lol
eleanor just said that its so dumb......
darn it
she's evil;
really evil

2009-02-21T20:27:00.000-08:00

heyy guys.
haizz......
i feel o...i dunno....emo?
sheesh
anyways, yea
school's been tough
with track problems
some ppl noe what im talking about though
right??????
aiyah
if u wanna noe then call me....'
jkjk
workworkwork]
sadsadsad
emoemoemo
ahhhhhhhh
track is giving me problem
maybe friendship?
sheesh
i seldom have these type of prolems
helppppp meeee

2009-02-17T02:08:00.000-08:00

heyy guys!!!!!!
sorry.....no time to post lately
too much homeworkk
teehee!
sometimes sleep at 3am
touch the bed and i will falll asleep
hahahahahaahahahaaha

and i wanna post about school'
in case u people dun't noe......
im in nygh now...

and and and i've made new frens !!!!!!!!!
like duhh
even pri school frenz that i did not tok
to last time is counted rite?
ya and
i lurv valentines day
whoooots!
messages.

ok fine
erm
yea ....i think im evil...
influenced by isabelly
hmph
meanie

yea
and...
i have new teachers tooo!!!!!!!!!!
i TOTALYY LURVE them all
hahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
its true
really.................................
and there is this girl in my class
that i don't really socialise with
sadd rite?
and then there is this person in my class heeehee
im not gonna rite the name down for u
hahahahahahahaha
i miss all of u guys....
muackssss
buh-byes
i gotta go
post some other time

2009-01-02T02:09:00.000-08:00

hello ppl of the world
heeee
today was the first day of school
mwahahhahahahahaaha
this day seriously marks a new chapter
.............................
of my life
so, i was a little lazy to wake up
hehes
and i went to bathe and eat my breakfast
heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
and and and
i have not bought my sch bag yet
so,
i used my crumpler bag
hehes
it was bottle neck traffic there

heyhey
for those who dunno wat school i've been posted to, its
nanyang
yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
okok
erm
and my parents dropped me off at school
i nearly got lost in the school while making my way to the quadrangle
at nanyang
lol
so, i walked until i found it
wait
i gtg
see ya
i'll continue

2008-12-29T07:29:00.000-08:00

hello
im toking to my fren called
CHARLENE!!!!
and she told me to say that she is retarded
teehee

mwahahahahaahahaha

now she said that she is smark my ass
awwwwwwwwwww
pouty
sighh
im bored
weenie said that she is gonna
call herself piggy
ok see ya
buh byess!!!!!!!!!!

MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

2008-12-15T22:30:00.000-08:00

hello ppl of the world
TODAY , I WILL BE POSTINGabout
tan jiaqi
mwahahahahahahahahahahaha
she told me to

ok
she is nice, sweet and loving
she told me to say this
hahahahahaha
lol

anyways...... jiaqi if u r reading this, u will remember that ur supposed to smack my ass
lol
buh byes

the evil desiree

2008-11-24T22:02:00.000-08:00

hello guys
i promised to revive this dead blog
i am gonna post about

the evil desiree!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
mwahahahahahahaha
she is well ..... erm...
a worm -like human
she is a chiobu
no wonder _______and other ppl like her
see, des, i told u i am gonna get back at u
payback time!!!!
mwahahahahahahaha
heehee
gonna post more l8ter
bb

2008-11-23T21:23:00.000-08:00

hello my fellow erm...frens?
heehee
long time no post
gonna TRY to revive this blog
haiz.....wat should i post about?
erm...... current events ?
okok

lets talk about the life-changing exam...................
the PSLE!!!!!
ok
i took a bus to school and i almost died of a heart attack
tooo nervous liao
sigh
almost cried
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek
gonna cry now
thinking about how i lost to charlene by 1 pathetic mark
sniff sniff

ok
regain my composure
mrs wong led us back to class
and started to give out the results
before that , she gave us the envelope
and somebody found out that it contained our results
eeeeeeeeeek
scary......
i opened it out of curiosity and saw my score

263!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
mwahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
with higher chinese its 266 lorhhh
hee hee distinction
i soon got the proper result slip
english >>>>>A*
mathematics>>>>>>>A*
chinese>>>>>>>>>A
science>>>>>>>>>>A*
higher chinese>>>>>>>>>distinction

sigh
wierd rite?
higher chinese better than normal chinese
hais................
i think my compo out of point
so i found my mother and told her
she is happy but slightly disappointed about the chinese only get A
but she is still quite happy
i daw des and yihui and sarah runing towards me and i regret not running away
they all asked me the same question
lol
how much i got
i told them and yihui and sarah almost fainted
its either too good or too atrocious
des said she wanted to hug me
i did not let her cos i realised that i might suffocate
yea
tired
post another time
buh-bye

2008-11-11T00:53:00.000-08:00

hello all u readers of moi blog that used to be dead!
haha
good news!!!!!
i got a new sworn sister!
guess hu she is
--------drumroll----------------------
it is ...................................................................BERNADINE!!!!!!!!
yay
i promised to post about it
buh-byes guys!

2008-11-08T23:00:00.000-08:00

DESIREE SO EVIL LA
WHILE PLAYING COMMUNCATION MAKE ME GO HOLD HANDS WITH XAVIER!!!!!
she held hands with caius as well!!!hahahahahahahahahahahahaha
SO FUNNEH
BOTH OF THEM BLUSHED

2008-11-08T22:56:00.000-08:00

hey wait!
go read desiree'blog to find out more about wat happened

2008-11-08T22:11:00.000-08:00

hi guys
long time no see
wait, i mean long time no post
hahas
okok enough crap
wat should i post about?
ok desiree's party!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok erm....

many people were there but only 7 people stayed over:
desiree,her sis,me,sarah,xavier,caius and this guy called yong something
there were like totally NO PARENTS!!!!!!
we went nuts
totally
ok
so,there were two rooms
des,her sis,sarah and i slept in one and xavier,caius and yong something slept in the other
ACTUALLY WE DID NOT SLEEP
the toilet was like very stinky ,so we forced the boys to wash the toilet before they went to sleep
they had a lot of fun lorh!!!!
xavier and caius were like stamping on the wet towels like they were running in a 100m race
while the four of us,(the girls)were trying to slepp(in vain)
sarah and des sis fell asleep immediately

des and i were still tossing and turning
after a while,i heard the sound of desiree's bed's wooden board creak under her weight
then i asked,"des,still awake rite?"
she answered,"ya!cannot sleep. wanna go out side and watch tv?"
i instantly agreed
we jumped out of bed and ran outside to watch tv
thanks to the boys laughter while watching the toiilet, we could not sleep
soon after, the boys finished washing the toilet and came out to join desiree and i
(her sis and sarah were still sleeping like .......)
we started bouncing the basketball
soon, we got bored so we started playing blackjack and gambled with uno cards
caius was the firstt one who went bankrupt
then, we heated the chicken up and started eating
we had a diabolical plan .......wake the two sleeping pigs up
we went into the room and woke them up
first des sis, then sarah
later, at 3am,all of us went out to play basketball
too dark liao
so after 15 min,we went back to the chalet
the girls went back to the room and tried to sleep but....
the boys came in and we did not sleep.
xavier was extremely hyper and kept toking about 2 things.....
CARS AND OBAMA
sighs....all of us were like diao............
soon after, xavier's hyperness went out of control and all of us,including the three boys, went out to the main room
xavier went to pour the bottled up ice lemon tea
into the boiler and boiled it
later, it was ready and he went to drink it and suddenly screamed
it was way too sweet
at around five ,we went to play basketball again
we soon came back cos it was too dark
we tried to waste time at the chalet
at 6am, we went to play baskeetball again
after30min, we went back to shower up
*********to be continued in a few days time **********************

2008-10-08T21:21:00.000-07:00

hellohellohellohello ((:

IM MEGANNNNN!

and i'm helping p-nut to post cos she's laughing like siao now ;DD

hellohellohellohellohellohello

I'M DESIREE! =)

hahahahahahahaha, crazy megan & peanut! (:

lols.

hellohellohellohellohellohello

I'M HUI XUANNNN! (:YA

MEGAN IS TRYING IN VAIN TO MURDER ME NOW

ONE MORE THING TO TELL U

DESIREE TAN HUI FANG IS TOTALLY RETARDED

JUST LIKE MEGANTAN WEI

2008-09-21T01:04:00.000-07:00

HI GUYS
I HAVE TO REVIVE THIS BLOG AFTER THE PSLE
HEE HEE.
i m bored to death
ok..............
lets talk about the prelims..
bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad AND EVEN WORSE
ok
class i got 3rd position and in the stupid level I GOT 16

2008-09-07T03:24:00.000-07:00

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2008-08-31T01:46:00.001-07:00

hi this is my NEW blog